Lost Embrace

Postcard

2007-09-26T14:52:00.000-07:00

alright I will make the appeal here

Who is Anne from Finland??? Se writes down this very sweet postcard to me but says I dont know her but she knows a lil of me???? Who has been telling things? come on answer people

Falling down

2007-09-13T14:06:00.000-07:00

"I'm falling down where no one can see it's sad sad place the suspension just get stronger", wise words from the singer of Suicidal Tendencies...

Thing is he was never so right, I just feel completly alone and without knowing what to do. For fuck safe can anyone help? I really lost the plot today in all sides!!!

Gym

2007-09-10T14:08:00.000-07:00

Jesus Bajesus, Oh someone shot me for a laugh I cant feel my legs!!!!

I have been to the gym freacking hell I am so sore not even I can sleep

help

New me

2007-09-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

These are the most recent pics of me in my adventire in the land of the queen
With my mate Tim in the O2 festival
Damn hammered in maidstone

These are the latest ones I have with 20kg gone from me

Vacations at an end

2007-08-28T03:20:00.000-07:00

Well going today back to the UK, I work on monday already.

Here is a pic of me and my family and 2 of my housemates Sheila and Mike that came here for holidays. More pics to follow.

Mmmmm Countries

2007-08-22T03:34:00.001-07:00

After seeing Hellen's blog I think I must schedule a long trip to Germany.

Unfortunatly many people think badly of Germany because of the history of it. People I aint proud of mine but I give a fair chance to everything in life... wait there are somethings I wont try believe me!!!

Denmark and a jump to Germany in October, Russia in easter and Serbia for the first week of big holidays... Seems a nice plan but if Russia becomes nigh impossible I will go for Germany. It isnt fair Hellen keeps making me drool with all the scenery she shows she is terrible, those who agree let me know!!!

Beautifull

2007-08-03T12:00:00.000-07:00

I got this amazing picture in Evora close to the Diana's Temple from the greek times, I have no idea who is the artist but it pays omage to a benefactor of the city

Trips

2007-08-03T11:30:00.000-07:00

I am still on holidays but planning already trips ahead in october.

There is this chance of me heading up to Denmark to meet a great friend I have there, Kim!!!

Now since I know another great friend lives in the northern part of Germany I might also convince her to go to the border and I go down to meet her. I wonder what she thinks of it??

Should I email her or wait for her to see this??

Farewell to teachers

2007-07-31T14:04:00.000-07:00

Farewell to teachers and school year in the Halfway Pub

PE Department

Roseanna and Michelle

Christelle and Tom

Christelle and Steve, French Department

Steve and Spocchia

Francis, Mark, Sheila and Craig

Going home

2007-07-14T10:13:00.000-07:00

That is right I will be going home for some days. Holidays in Portugal sound rubish but then again it is way better when you actually can rest. Leaving on the 29th of July returning on the 28th of august. Going to see friends and family and my crazy dogs, I will post some pictures and make sure I keep a log of activities.

Until then one week and a half of work left and kids to see and teach.

Moving house also at the end of the July

It is the fifth time I am moving I am way too tired of moving

News

2007-07-07T07:29:00.000-07:00

Alright Ladies and gents I will start using this blog also for all the foreign great friends and unknow people out there.

I will start posting here about what has been up with me lately, some pics and of course whatever floats my mind

See you soon

The moon shines on me

2007-02-20T05:01:00.002-08:00

The moon shines on me

As she shines on me all the darkness in my heart is filled with radiant light
A radiant dispossession of love and hate fills me to the brim
Invades my soul of desire
My veins of lust
My mind of blood craving desires

The shinning of your eyes pierces the skies
They weep blood that replenishes the dry land
The land of our forefathers
The land we took from them
The land we cry as we touch and walk supreme in our glorification of heaven on earth

Proud are we standing alone!
Proud are we cherishing the sacred world of home!
Proud are we to speak this language
Proud am I of bearing the Lusitanian Pride!!!

Engage now moon of my fears
Fill me
Feed me
I am yours
Take me in your sweet flight back to my homeland and let me die among my forefathers.

Upon the event of my Death

2007-02-20T05:01:00.001-08:00

Upon the event of my Death

Upon the event of my death
Do not cry or feel sad
Do not scream or become anguished
Do not mourn or fall into oblivion
It was my choice and desire
My wish and sanity craving
My pain, my sole pain

I lived long and sad
Loved and lost
Killed and maimed
Thrived and died
It is not a light decision
It carries the burden of pain
I lost my will
I lost my fate

I had conquests
But the loss was still there always with me
No pacts where done with evil doers
Just a pact with me
The end of it is nigh
Shadows cloud my vision as I unfold the last moments

I pray to thee not to cry but rejoice
I pray to thee not to suffer but to laugh
I pray thee not to be angry but happy
I released my torments and free I am
Enjoy life as I enjoyed mine…

Rocking chair

2007-02-20T04:58:00.000-08:00

I was sitting on a chair
A rocking chair
Just a plain rocking chair
I was sitting there hearing the window blows
Hearing the breeze kiss my face
Hearing the world move
Hearing myself fading
I took you by my hand and promised life
I failed and give you hell
My throat sores now has I pray forgiveness
Has I pray my last words
Has I fade into eternity
Has I fade into the miasma of the pestilence I find myself to be.

I was sitting on a chair
A rocking chair
Just a plain rocking chair
When the world collapsed on me
When I pierced my heart with your memories
When I lost myself to your lies
I will go now after you killed me
I will go smiling
Crying inside but smiling in eternal love for the death that released me
Thank you sweet love
Thank you

I was sitting on a rocking chair when it stopped in time… I just fade away…

And then there was silence

2007-02-20T04:57:00.000-08:00

And then there was silence…
And everything froze in time
Stopped in the mere existence of thought
All fading into oblivion
All becoming mere shadows on the night cold rain
All becoming whispers of a forgotten form of speech
All becoming you and so more like you

And then there was pain…
Pain excruciating like never before felt
Towards the twisting knife I looked
Grabbed by the pommel I cried in vain
You stabbed it to deep
You pierced my coldness and brought warm again

And then there was compassion…
Your hands made me stir
Your sweet caresses brought light upon my fading light
Your lips closing my eyes
Your sweet voice calming down my existence
Your kiss a promise of love

And then there was eternity…
I passed out of this plane
Embraced the everlasting beauty of this garden of yours
Escaped the foul miasma of pestilence of this world
Escaped my own daemons to live in pure ecstasy of love
Escaped death by dying and reborn yours truly

And then there was love…
Eternity brought thee to me
I will not fail
Nor men nor empires will stop me
I pound the earth beneath my feet strolling to you
Do you receive me?

Purpose

2007-02-20T04:55:00.000-08:00

Simple thing this one. I will be using this blog to post some of the poems/scriblings I do usually in a bad mood. It's in english since I cant write in decent portuguese